one year today

I can't believe it! It has been ONE year today since our Lil' Brave Heart had his open-heart by-pass surgery. November 11, 2008 was his new heart repair day. This has been a very slow yet fast year. Does that make sense? So glad that all of this is behind us and we can figure out how to live. That has been the hard part breaking out of this unusual way of life. I really don't think people grasp the sacrifices made since Schafer's birth just to keep him and everyone around him healthy. This was cabin fever to the extreme...imagine when there is an ice storm and you are in your house for 2-3 days. Most people are about to go nuts! I had 11 months of that pretty much then finally when we get the green light...flu stuff hits everyone like wild fire. One of the very things they told us to protect him from. So hard to settle the nerves and get rid of the conditioning we adopted...even months after the surgery. But all this time away from most things brought a family together closer than ever! So thankful for that. I know my new found germaphobia will settle a bit over time and my lighting fast eyes watching everyone and everything going on have to do with germs should settle to half speed. You laugh, but I can't turn it off. I think I can hear a nose being picked from the other room;). Let's not try it around me y'all...that is just sick...then you'll get sick cause you just stuck swine flu germs up your nose cause you didn't wash your hands after you touched door knobs, or elevator buttons, or your steering wheel (where you last picked your nose)etc. etc. etc. Do you see how crazy you can get!:)
I came across my list of advice for other heart parents going through this the other day. I remember thinking that if i don't write it down as i go through things I will forget the heavy emotion behind it. Man, that is so true. I read things to tell others that I have already forgot about, but quickly felt when I re-read certain parts. I so have a heart for heart parents and i know the lord will open doors in that area. I didn't realize that i needed a break and time to regroup and heal myself. Take a break from blogging and focus more on living. So sweet.
Anyway, the Lord has been so faithful and truly life-changing! Thank-you Jesus! He is my sweet lil man...I love him so much! He is so engaging and sweet with this comical twist. So cute, but of course I think he is cute cause I'm his mom! But God is so good! Thank you all who have been so supportive and have been tolerant of our "breaking out in the world time".