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one year today

2009-11-10T22:09:00.000-08:00

I can't believe it! It has been ONE year today since our Lil' Brave Heart had his open-heart by-pass surgery. November 11, 2008 was his new heart repair day. This has been a very slow yet fast year. Does that make sense? So glad that all of this is behind us and we can figure out how to live. That has been the hard part breaking out of this unusual way of life. I really don't think people grasp the sacrifices made since Schafer's birth just to keep him and everyone around him healthy. This was cabin fever to the extreme...imagine when there is an ice storm and you are in your house for 2-3 days. Most people are about to go nuts! I had 11 months of that pretty much then finally when we get the green light...flu stuff hits everyone like wild fire. One of the very things they told us to protect him from. So hard to settle the nerves and get rid of the conditioning we adopted...even months after the surgery. But all this time away from most things brought a family together closer than ever! So thankful for that. I know my new found germaphobia will settle a bit over time and my lighting fast eyes watching everyone and everything going on have to do with germs should settle to half speed. You laugh, but I can't turn it off. I think I can hear a nose being picked from the other room;). Let's not try it around me y'all...that is just sick...then you'll get sick cause you just stuck swine flu germs up your nose cause you didn't wash your hands after you touched door knobs, or elevator buttons, or your steering wheel (where you last picked your nose)etc. etc. etc. Do you see how crazy you can get!:)
I came across my list of advice for other heart parents going through this the other day. I remember thinking that if i don't write it down as i go through things I will forget the heavy emotion behind it. Man, that is so true. I read things to tell others that I have already forgot about, but quickly felt when I re-read certain parts. I so have a heart for heart parents and i know the lord will open doors in that area. I didn't realize that i needed a break and time to regroup and heal myself. Take a break from blogging and focus more on living. So sweet.
Anyway, the Lord has been so faithful and truly life-changing! Thank-you Jesus! He is my sweet lil man...I love him so much! He is so engaging and sweet with this comical twist. So cute, but of course I think he is cute cause I'm his mom! But God is so good! Thank you all who have been so supportive and have been tolerant of our "breaking out in the world time".

I told ya i've been buuusssyyyy!

2009-09-30T05:44:00.000-07:00

I still have pictures i need to take of my friend reagan's house. Three rooms to be exact, but here are some pictures i did for her baby boy that is coming any day. It is a vintage car room, but with a twist. It has the old distress stuff but is combined with bright graphic print designs. It has turned out so cute. Lucky lil' guy! The other pics are of a church kids area I have been painting about 4 Saturdays in a row. Just finished last Saturday! Yeah! It looks very cute in person. Some times i don't like posting stuff cause it just doesn't look right. But you'll get the idea. I also did some children's ministry paintings for the same church (church of the servant-across from galardia) in there main area for directional purposes. The canvases are 4x5ft. each...I did 5 of them. Let me say that my poor living area was full! Well, here they are...enjoy! Taking a break in October...kinda. Working on my house in some areas and taking pictures of two families. Then who knows what next!

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busy, busy, busy

2009-09-04T15:03:00.000-07:00

hey all...

I've been a bit busy with some side jobs. I really wasn't trying to take on this much, but it just happened this way. I will post the rest of the rooms when I taken them. Enjoy!

long time but a good time

2009-08-10T05:38:00.000-07:00

I have wanted so much to post something for awhile but it just hasn't seemed right to me. Even on Facebook I haven't left many if any posts. I think I have needed an "info" computer break from everyone. I love knowing the news, journeys, struggles, musings and everything else in between of those I know, but I think I needed a break emotionally from all that. This is the first season in which our family is "slowly" venturing out and experiencing life together has a family. Some cool moments that seem so routine to everyone else, but i would pause and stare and reflect was going to one of the frozen yogurt places as a family (so small but such a great time). We also went to dinner with some good friends and it was so weird that Haiden could use a booster seat and Schafer needed a high chair. I know it sounds silly, but I too haven't thought of these transitions til I am there and experiencing them. I sometimes stop and think..."oh my gosh...this is crazy that is the first time I've done this with my family of 4 when everyone I know with 4 or more it is second nature". It will get there soon. That is just me. I will get it down and it too will be a second nature. All that to say, that though our summer isn't crazy eventful it is fast enough for me.
I have also taken on a few painting and logo jobs. I really didn't mean for them to be at one time, but i promise that is how it ALWAYS works. I think that is why I stress. It usually works out I just have a few extra grays and happy customers in the end;). I'll post pics as they are winding up...really cute stuff.
The big thing I have struggled with is what we want to do schooling wise with Haiden and Schafer. I've heard it all. Now, everyone...I don't need "devil's advocate comments" this is a prayerful decision that didn't come easy. I was a public school girl and i did go to private school for 3 years and I loved it. So I am not against those institutions of learning at all. I think you do what is best for your family. I have had a crazy amount of people peppered in my life that home school. I ask questions out of curiosity, but kinda glaze over as they talk cause I just don't see me doing that. But on the flip side...I felt sick sending her to public school and private right now money wise may not be a solid thing right now, but still not liking that option either. All that to say...I have been unsettled about any options, and I really wanted to be confident and excited about where we decide to educate our children. So recently there was a meeting about the pros and cons of homeschooling, and it was good. i didn't leave thinking, "Oh yes, I am gonna home school for sure". No, I had some great solid facts from reputable sources that I agreed with, but did i want that responsibility. I was still unsettled. Well the other day a good friend of ours was telling us about a wedding they went to and it was our "youth ministry days reunion". This was a group of kids (all grown-up) that came after Chris and I got married, but I know names and backgrounds of most. Our friend was telling us the complements from parents of these kids and that these youth are just doing amazing as adults and "love the Lord". And well, isn't that what it is all about at the end of the day. Well, what I didn't realize was most of those kids were home schooled. Their parents were involved and pouring into their lives more than peers and teachers did. Most parents get 2-3 hours an day to instill value, attitude, and anything else that they feel is important. The thing is that so many of the youth "had to find" there way themselves. Not alot of guiding from parents and alot of trust in each other to make life decisions. Did some make it through and turn out fine...sure I still communicate with them. Love them dearly. But when you look at your babies and think about unnecessary struggles, influences, under lying self-confidence problems, and really not able to converse well to adults or in front of people. Why not try. After all...the Lord gave us our kids to take care of. He also was telling us about this leader ship meeting and he was telling us about a title of a book "too small to ignore". Can I just tell you that that comment stuck. That morning I was painting a mural for a church and I had my ipod and was just listening to worship and getting lost in my thoughts. very little interruptions, phone calls, not taking care of anyone at the moment but getting lost in the Lord and painting. Which I would do all the time, but I haven't got to experience in awhile. It was truly a great time touching the Lord. I was at one time just tearing up and weeping as I was painting and It hit me hardcore. Yes, we are going to home school. My little babies are too small to ignore and trust others to pour into their precious lives. I have to at least take it one year at a time. I started getting excited! that is what I was looking for a peace with excitement. Thank you Lord for showing me what we need to do with our kiddos right now. I started thinking about haiden and what would kindergarten look like and let me tell you...fun exciting ideas just started flooding into my head. I never got to learn like that. And of course, I am already thinking of what our learning space will look like. I have to decorate;). Well, that is a touch of my heart and a small insight into our summer. I will try to post more soon. Lots of pics that I haven't posted either. Stay tuned.

schafer's 1st rock/punk birthday

2009-06-09T21:00:00.000-07:00

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Well, it has been hard to write this for some reason. I have searched my brain and heart as to why...cause on millions of levels I am so happy and over joyed that my sweet little man made it a year! And what a year to celebrate too. I normally try too hard when it comes to a birthday party. I try to do anything a budget will allow me to do. This party was so difficult...cause to us it was so much more than a 1st birthday party...it was a celebration. I wanted to figure out how to connect our year people missed with the heart surgery in the theme. I really didn't feel like I had to do everything in a "look what I can do" way, no this party was so special. It was more special to me than I thought. It really hit me HARD Sunday night as I was going to bed. Man, Chris and I bickered so much the week of on just trying to get things done, I couldn't make clear quick decisions, I felt very overwhelmed and scattered brained, I would remember what to do then in seconds forget, I never felt like I was done with the details...etc., etc., etc. It was very unsettling. I just had this funk and convenient enough it was the time of month I could have gone without that I'm sure didn't help. I truly felt like I was on a roller coaster..then it hit me that all these things were just things and I have my little boy alive and whole, healthy, and thriving. I really think that's why I kept trying to do more. Just trying in anyway to let people know how special, amazing, reflective, and that we survived and we are blessed. I just didn't realize this in the mist of the planning and executing that nothing can be better or more perfect than him. it just wasn't working for me.

I look at that little boy and he just fills me up with so much love. He is so amazing and he just takes my breathe away. I can't believe that Chris and I were picked to raise him and pour into him. I am so thankful that the Lord created his heart the way he did. It was perfect. I just want my sweet boy to know the Lord so he will then fill that perfect heart with Jesus some day.

To conclude the party...it was lovely. It went well, and we were surrounded by people that have loved us from afar as we have traveled this journey. We are so thankful for everyone of you out there that have poured your prayers, thoughts, golf tournament stuff, love and support to our family. It is so humbling and precious. We love you all! Can't wait for everyone to get to know our little man aka "brave heart". He will touch your heart...just wait til he smiles at you then you will understand. ps...the smilebox at the end has most of the video of schafer's first year we showed at the party. if you want to see the rest you will have to come over, eat popcorn, and hangout. :)

website wednesday

2009-05-28T06:18:00.000-07:00

k guys...I promise I will update on our family, art stuff, stc. soon. My evenings and free time have been consumed with internet research stuff and editing pictures. BUT here are some fun sites to search.

http://www.dashandalbert.com/

http://www.delight.com/categories.php

https://www.myretrobaby.com

http://www.thepetitepress.com/index.asp?PageAction=VIEWCATS&Category=6

http://www.whimsypress.com/index.php

Enjoy!

memorial weekend pics

2009-05-25T12:07:00.001-07:00

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funny things

2009-05-13T10:08:00.000-07:00

Well I have noticed that my little girl is a comedian...not sure if it is on purpose but very entertaining.
For example...Chris and I were talking about Schafer's birthday coming up and Chris just starts going on and on about some stuff he is excited about. The thing is I was talking before he started and tried to continue after he was done and he thought of a few more things to interject. So, I sarcastically say, "The problem is..." and he noticed what he was doing and said, "The problem is that I'm interrupting". Just as I was about to talk Haiden butts in loudly then casually points her finger in front of her analytical expression on her face and waves it side to side and says, "No, the problem here, (sigh) the problem here is that I am watching Backyardigans...guys." Needless to say we cracked up laughing and she smirked mainly cause she then knew she must have said something that was humorous.
And did I mention that my little girl wants to play drums! Yeah, she wants to play drums with sticks as she puts it. Where did she get that? Not ballet (though I'm sure if I mentioned it she would), not softball, not dance or tap, not even a musical instrument like the piano...drums. She did say she wanted to play golf cause her Paw Paw plays it. Which is great with me...I played it in high school for 2 years and really loved it. But Chris told her that if she wanted to try the drums and likes it...sure we will make sure you are the coolest chick drummer ever! And we will. When we thought the conversation was over she says..."I really want to play the drums, I just now need to join band." LOL! I could go on...I have about 3 more funny things but gotta save the content ya know:). here are some websites to check out for "Website Wednesday". Enjoy

http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=6871124&order=&section_id=&page=1

http://www.dearjohnnies.com/shop/index.php

http://www.plainmary.com/burpcloths1.html

http://www.tiny-tales.com/

http://www.ragandbonebindery.com/index.asp

http://www.ragandbonebindery.com/index.asp

2009-05-11T08:45:00.000-07:00

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Sorry if some of you have seen this in a few places...alot of people don't do facebook, but check blog. Just wanted you all to enjoy!

new website wednesday

2009-04-29T15:42:00.000-07:00

Ok, I've decided that on Wed. I will share some sites, blogs, or finds that I have stuffed away in the great beyond. I'm talking about sites that have good ideas, home stuff, nursery stuff, family needs and interests, a great little find, or something corky and fun. I may still keep some to myself for back-up, but I thought you guys would enjoy the things out there. So I will probably have anywhere from 1-5 new places to explore on the web...have fun!

http://twotinas.com/index.html

http://www.littlemissmatched.com

http://www.pinktaffydesigns.com

http://www.patinastores.com

http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=5922499&section_id=5656247

where have all the bloggers gone?

2009-04-28T20:17:00.000-07:00

Dear Bloggers,

I remember the first time I searched for a blog. It was a friends. Oh, how I found it intriguing! The thrill of pictures, plethora of news, creative blog backgrounds stretched awkwardly across the screen, and the composition of song. How my heart leaped when new blogs of dear friends joined this crazy craze. The feelings of connection and up to the date information made my lonely days. Silly kids playing, smiling, saying the darnest things, what's for dinner, and the occasional birthday and/or anniversary were so lovely. The deep thoughts, comical moments, decorating delimas always set my head spinning. So I ask you now..."Bloggers where have you (consistently) gone?" I read your words once in a great moon after your time update is past "4 weeks" and/or wishing everyone a "Happy Valentine's Day"...which ever one comes first. If I may leave you with this thought bloggers...wipe the dust of your "new post" button and give your FACE BOOK AND TWITTER ACCOUNTS a rest. These tiny little blurbs are throughout your day...though addicting are not satisfying to readers and friends. I know the urge of scoping out old high school chumps...oops i mean chums and seeing who they married and what their children molded into is at times a legal way of spying on each other, but we need depth and substance from each other. So please reclaim your blogs more often. Thank you.

The mom that has been stuck in a house for more than 10 months people!!!
Kacie

JUST KIDDING!!!!!!!! But seriously we need to get on it. Including me. I really do enjoy hearing about stuff from everyone. And though I may not always leave a comment...I do read them! Gotta love my comic relief...huh! I know ya can do it...I see ya on facebook. Not twitter though it still sounds dirty when you say, "I twittered you"!

maybe it is a case of spring cleaning?

2009-04-27T06:42:00.000-07:00

So lately I have been battling in my head mind you several areas behind closed doors that need my attention. I know all of you have this going on too...don't hide and act like ya don't. I'll give you some examples.

As you walk into my home you will notice my entryway with a black armoire...nice and decorated...yes? Well what bugs me is behind the doors of the armoire. Unfolded blankets and old xbox game stuff we don't use. Oh, and to your left my office. When the computer armoire is closed and bills are put away...it looks picked up and nice, but once you wonder into this deceiving space...BEWARE! The armoire will eat you...it is full of random papers and receipts, discs, graphic design books and computer stuff. my file cabinets need an overhaul of throwing out bills from 2002 and on (in my defense I was told to keep them for 5-7 years for taxes, but come on). But one hidden area that I think bugs me the most is my "saved favorites" and "pictures" on my computer. Those who know me know that I have websites for most things and look up things for people all the time...even when they don't ask;). I HAVE to get those organized cause I have found some awesome sites, resource, blogs, and inspirational places on the world wide web that I can't find or over look. I have pictures, invitations, backgrounds, artwork, murals, etc. etc. etc. I love that stuff! It is so fun to find. So, I need to sit here and make folders, delete, and move a bill-zillion sites. I also have been organizing pictures of Haiden and schafer and getting them into digital photo books, and I really have been wanting to start a new blog for heart mommies facing before and after open heart surgeries with their babies. I still have a huge burden for that...thank the Lord that surgery is over and schafer is doing great! Oh, k...anyway I also am slowly redecorating my bedroom. Don't think I will have it done by Bunco though girls. I wish I could. I'll keep ya posted on that project...lots of ideas...LOTS! I have many things just needing a little attention and TLC. I will get to them knowing me, but I have to say it is way more fun in the evenings after taking care of two kids and a house with a few freelance jobs on the side, I would rather watch TV and chill. Just venting and talking today...nothing awe inspiring. Everyone have a great day!!!

a new name board and pics

2009-04-21T19:33:00.000-07:00

Well, I thought I would share this name board painting I did for my neighbors little girl's room a couple of days ago. She was updating her room from nursery to "big girl" toddler room. She gave me a sham of her new bedding and whala...Here it is. They love it and it really looks great with her stuff. I thought I would also share some pics I was playing around with of Schafer on our porch.His hair is a bit goofy cause I wasn't planning them, but oh well. He is just awesome! I love that little man!!!! Sorry if this and Facebook have the same things...I always put things on here, but a few people wanted to see the painting on there. Enjoy!

oh my little babydoll

2009-04-20T06:21:00.000-07:00

Okay...

Haiden woke me up yesterday morning and we started our routine of going potty etc. After we were done we went to get her robe, and she wanted to read ME a story. Which was fine with me cause I was still in zombie mode. So, we climbed in her bed and she grabbed her kid bible. You know the one with pictures and words. She randomly started opening the bible in different places telling me stories. For instants, "See saw (Esau) and Check-up (Jacob) were talking one day...see they both have beards." "Oh, here's Noah, and Noah, and Noah, and Noah. Four Noah's and they are in front of the ark or a big tower." Mommy trying not to laugh, "Baby, those are just men in front of the tower of babel." "But they have beards that are gray like Noah, Mommy." "Then there was a tree on fire and the snake turned into a stick then back in to a snake, and the man was scared and covered his face." I then said, "Okay Baby, that is Moses, the burning bush, and God turned Moses' stick into a snake then back to the stick. But you were close...hehehe." No mommy he looks like Jesus. Well, I'm done let's go get some warm milk...not cold, warm."

Well, as you can see I had a very colorful bible lesson. We have some clearing up to do, but i love that she loves the bible. I pray that as she gets older it will be a source of time with her Heavenly Father and she will see the life in the words rather than it just being stories. Her innocence is precious. Here is a pic of my little babydoll when she was 3 months old...man do they grow-up fast!

light bulb moment

2009-04-16T20:52:00.000-07:00

I know it has been awhile...I keep wanting to write something fun that was a project of mine or something clever, but I still have struggled with what is blog worthy. So, I thought I would just be real and share a light bulb moment with you all.
Not to keep bringing up my life these last 10 months, but it is my reality. I acutely noticed how everyone's life has moved on from how I remembered it. Some people are now close friends that I remember just meeting, some are not as close, little girls really don't know my little girl that well anymore but for her they are long lost friends she can't wait to play with as they run to the ones that have been there. You kinda think time stood still just for us, but it hasn't and I know that you just forget and have to adjust. At times I wonder "Why me? Why our family? I wonder what will come of this? How will God use this? How will he use me? How will he use Schafer? And on and on and on...This has totally been the scariest, exhausting, wildest, loneliest, worrisome, confusing, unstable, sweetest, trust building, eye-opening, fulfilling, amazing, life changing, passion building, rewarding, Christ-filled experience ever! The big question is...would I change it? NO.
God took an event in our family's journey and used it to touch us. Well, let me put it another way or in a question form. How can God heal someone that doesn't know they're sick? WOW! Let that sink in....go....................................k. I didn't know I was sick. I really was. Now let me try to explain. Before Schafer was born I was a self proclaimed "stay at home mom", but I painted my butt off all the way up to 8.5 months. I climbed 8-12 ft ladders so people could have poke-a-dot ceilings, swirls galore, glitter at every corner, pictures showcasing precious kid's names adorn with boas, and wild animal prints hugged in a harlequin shape. Phew...all the while I desperately tried to juggle haiden between my mom and a friend during the day so I could get it all done. Don't get me wrong...it is not a bad gig, but it is very time consuming and labor some especially when you are prego! On top of that hopping from life group, church, errands, grocery shopping, play dates, doctors visits, Chris' work, house cleaning, laundry etc. We all do it, but I really did feel full of activities and things and that God was where ever he could fit. Which was usually thought of when I crawled into bed and was about to fall asleep or at the Saturday night church experience. I think I grew "tolerant" of Him. Maybe that is what my sickness is called. Eew!!! That can't be good. I know the Christianise language, the right advice to friends, the check list of good little things we all claim we need more of. But for some reason I felt like I just ran a 100 mile marathon and was passing out and the Bible, prayer, and everything else you claim to do seemed distant, fatiguing, chore-like, and far from my reach. Sounds silly or does it? It was almost like I was spiritually numb. No LIFE. It took an event that humbly shook us to the core and made me isolated to the the rush of the world and the pressure to be all things and....STOP. I think I wanted to know his word and the knowledge of the Lord before that I forgot how to experience him in His fullness. How to touch Him. I still am learning, but it feels more full and healing than just words in the Bible. Cause that is all that it is unless it truly comes to LIFE. When was the last time you touched the Lord? Do you even know how? It isn't a check list of all the good little things we Christians stress over to do for the kingdom. Those are nice and nothing wrong, but when is the last time the Lord is your strength, peace, wisdom, understanding, love, patience, etc, etc, etc. Instead of asking him to help you with it. He is already with you and in you ready to guide YOU! It really is so simple and I make it so hard. All I can say is in these 10 months the Lord gave me a beautiful son that is a perfect reminder of His LOVE...Schafer has this scare that will ever remind me that the Lord not only healed my little sweet boy, but healed a family that realized we were sick too. Not anymore...praise the Lord! I am at awe of Him and can't wait to see what else He wants to do in us for his kingdom through a beautifully rough season in our life.

a new find via the web

2009-03-26T20:26:00.000-07:00

Okay...

I have just had a fabulous night discovering more fun blogs, sites, and boutiques all with great ideas for stuff. You know me anything to get the juices flowing in this cranium of mine. I thought I would share a fun site called http://www.projectnursery.com/ it is loaded with tons of stuff and you can be there for hours hopping from one site to the other. Well, that is really it...I have been on the computer for 3 hours looking at random things and I NEED to get off. Enjoy though it can be a treat if you take the time to search.

issues of the heart

2009-03-18T11:14:00.001-07:00

Well...

some of you already know that Sunday night my Dad had a heart attack. It was so random and out of the ordinary to us. He just is not a heart patient or has any signs of a heart patient. All that to say without going through the whole story, he stayed 2 days in the hospital monitored and he is home now resting and getting back to himself again. He will be going back in 6 weeks to see if they need to do open heart surgery or stints on the other 2 remaining blockages. My dad made a sweet comment that he will be very close to Schafer cause they will have some life changing things in common. Two open heart surgeries on people I love is too many to go through in 6 months. But if it makes him better and stay here longer than it is worthy it. I am just gonna need many bottles of hair color to cover this gray.

I had a painting I had to do for someone...she wanted a heart with wings. I had been busy with little things here and there and just not inspired at all. I had a basic idea of what I was gonna do but not feeling the execution of the whole thing. After going through this with my Dad and bringing me memories of Schafer's heart surgery and hospital time...it came to me. I got it done in just a few hours. My friend really didn't give me a color palette or anything that she HAD to have, so I was pretty free to do what I wanted to do. That was nice. It is a painting but has some collage work in there too. I am posting the pics and also some of my brave man who is now a little over 9 MONTHS! Can you believe it...i will be getting on the planning of his 1st bday soon...wow. Well enjoy and just keep my Dad in your prayers.

where did time go...

2009-03-12T07:10:00.000-07:00

Hello out there...it has been awhile. Some is laziness and doubting the content of being blog worthy or even of interest to you all. Cause frankly I feel a bit boring and busy with blah things. To update you bloggers I've finished up a nursery (which I currently don't have pics...stay tuned), trying to finish up taxes, projects around the house, and we just went to St. Louis with Schafer for the first time. They both did great in the car for it being a 7 hour drive. We made it in 8 on the way there...potty training can bite. But every time we took Haiden potty she was dry and said she didn't have to go, but I made her for the lack of stops between podunk towns. On the way home we only stopped once and she was good and dry the whole time with no panic stops! Good little girl. Schafer did really well...the last 45min there and back he had it. Wanted out and wanted to move. I really can't blame him, I sat between both kids in a 14 inch space on the hump in the back of an xterra...yippppie.:( Not fun at all, rather cramped if you would like to know. And I really could complain way more about much more with that lovely situation. I really can't believe I am saying this to everyone reading, but I really think I want a mini...miniva...minivan. There I said it out loud. Maybe in a few months we'll look into it.
Also, a mini update...the minute I confessed my desire to chill on the painting gigs etc. It pretty much has flooded in and I have been tested big time. I have to tell about...oh, 8 people that now is not a good time and space them out. Oh, can you even image trying to do all that even with out kids. Phew, I get stressed if I really think about it. That is alot to keep straight and put full attention to. Well, I would put some pics of Schafer's first trip to "the Lou" but I forgot my CAMERA!!!!! URRRRRGGGG! Til next time...Kacie out;)

a graphic invitation

2009-02-18T20:20:00.000-08:00

Here is my nephews first bday party invitation. He has been jumping or kicking since 4 months and my sister-n-law thought it would be most fitting to have a froggy bday! It is a really cute fun theme and I'm sure he will love to look back at it when he is older. Here is the invite I just finished.

a baby nursery

2009-02-18T20:06:00.000-08:00

I am doing this baby nursery for the owner of Pickle and Ice Cream. She is having a little boy soon named Maddox and he is gonna have a monkey room. It really is cute! I haven't painted the room yet...that is this Sunday, but I have finished some of the art work going on the walls. The big canvas is getting framed soon...enjoy! I will give an update on the room designs soon with some pics.
sorry it is sideways...it would not turn!

bibbidi bobbidi boo

2009-02-16T19:36:00.000-08:00

Long long ago in a far away land....oh, this weekend about 4 miles from our home was Haiden and a good friend of ours little girl named Brinley was a birthday party.

They both turned 3 and are only fives days apart. Her mom and I thought that this year considering our stuff going on that we would have a celebration together. I really didn't and couldn't have a ton of people at our home during this time of year, so Erryn suggested having it at their neighborhood clubhouse. It was alot of last minute work, but I really think they enjoyed it...and that really is what it is all about. It was a Cinderella theme and the girls dressed as Cinderella. When their little guest arrived they did a craft project and made a mouse like in the movie while listening to the movie soundtrack. A bit later we had a surprise guest for the girls...it was CINDERELLA herself and she had gifts for everyone! she had a princess crown and wands for Haiden and Brinley. She then said, "Cinderella can't be a princess without a fairy godmother". And gave them all tutus and wands...the boys were not forgotten and got a fishing pole...ya know somethin' Charming likes to do. They played a ballroom dancing freeze game with Cinderella, then blew out the candles on their cupcakes, got pics, and then opened their enchanting presents. It was as smooth as it could be with having oh...15 or so 3 year old then 5-6 babies and 30 something adults. Phewww!!! Well, my sweet baby girl looked breath taking...of course I'm partial. She LOVED Cinderella a first sight. She would have sat her down and told her everything she could all day if she had a chance. She was a card and would pose for cameras too. We love her so much and are blessed to watch our baby doll grow-up! Enjoy some pics! at the end of the day....................Cinderella (Haiden) found better shoes!

a new favorite thing

2009-02-12T14:49:00.000-08:00

Okay...

I am obsessed with surfing this esty site. It is a site with people's "handmade things" on it. And some people blow me away and inspire me so much. They sell it on there and you can find and buy almost anything. Kinda like going to a big Affair of the Heart from people all over the world. I am thinking about opening shop there for others to enjoy and buy if they want. But I wanted to share with you this necklace that is coming soon. I saw it and yelled to Chris...."I HAVE TO HAVE THIS!!!". I have been looking for a necklace or something to signify and finalize our journey. Chris got me a beautiful dainty necklace that I LOVE so much and it is great and now I found one that just tops it off and goes with my other one PERFECT! same finishes and everything.

It is a silver tarnished heart with a gold tarnished band aid on it! In so many ways it symbolizes our journey.

1. Just the fact of Schafer having a mended heart

2. that is what I told haiden Schafer was having done, "Schafer has a booboo on his heart an he has to go to a special doctor, and he is going to put a special band aid on bubba's heart to make it all better"

3. As a mom, after his surgery and we were home...I felt like this chapter was coming to an end and a big weight was lifted. I to received a band aid on my heart that ached and worried.

I probably could find more reasons...those are the ones that hit me first and the hardest. So here is a picture of it...it is also gonna have schafer's name on the back with his surgery "new heart" date! Enjoy!

my baby girl is 3!

2009-02-10T15:24:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIDEN!!!!!!! Well today is Haiden's birthday...she is three now! I can not believe that. The time has flown by so quickly. She is so lovely and amazing, especially after her last 8 months with all the Schafer heart stuff. It has not only affected us but her too. Her whole little world changed when he was born. Not only gaining a brother but a life of hibernation for a season. God knew what kind of little personality my baby girl needed to stand this. Thank you Lord! Well I really could go on on and on but here are some pictures of her today, and I will post some of her party from this coming up weekend next week! Need to go for now...we are having tornados in FEBRUARY!!!!

mean hungry monster

2009-02-05T07:35:00.000-08:00

Here is a thought that is kinda funny, but at the same time not when you are watching what you eat.

Okay...I have been watching my food and portions for almost 3.5 weeks and I have lost between 7-8 lbs.-good...not monumental. But I figure if I keep it steady I will be where I want to be soon. Here's the thing...I have been eating 3 healthy meals and 2 snack type meals, and water. Haiden has been asking me, "what's that, can I have a bite?". So of course as a mommy should I let her try it...then she wants most of it! My measuring of my servings is wrecked...I really don't know what I just ate and what she ate so I feel this sense of greed come over me. I want to say to her, "sweet girl...mommy is soooooo hungry and this is the end of my existence if you eat all my food!" And she has so much other food that I would rather eat anyway. DO you guys know what I am talking about? So I have that greedy monster in me right now or I should say a hesitant monster that does not give with joy to my child, but I do regrettably. Well, the other night i treated myself to one of those 100 calorie microwave popcorn things. Kids are in bed and I am in American Idol chill out mode, all of a sudden Schafer starts stirring and crying and I go to check. I come back and Chris took a big hand full and stuffed it in his mouth with a "I just got caught" look on his face.

I let him have it..............the angry monster took over my body and a stunned look turned to anger, and I said you ate my snack!!!! That is all I get! Why would you sneak that!!! His eyes got big and he said that he forgot about that and he was sorry. He kept saying, "I'll make more and you can have some of mine...sorry". The ugly monster then sunk back to that hesitant monster that said, "that's fine, just please don't eat my food ever again."

The End

true story

new projects...2 down...? to go

2009-02-03T11:12:00.000-08:00

Here are two projects I've done recently....

1) these 2 pictures I painted for a friend (Lydia). She has a little boy on the way named Jett. So a vintage plane feel is what she is going for. I hope they bring her and little Jett joy as he grows up to be big and strong and love on his family!

2) These are a series of 3 pictures for a bathroom...kinda a fun whimsical collage of lamps. They are for my mom. She hesitated to ask me cause I really don't do anything for family...it never works out, but she really loved them.

so that is some of my projects and a taste of what is going on before my journey. Enjoy!

a new day

2009-01-29T11:28:00.000-08:00

Hey all...

I think I am hanging up the the "30 days of clean" thing for now...at least till spring. It doesn't feel like the right timing on my end for sure. I just feel like I am on my way on a different journey.

I had this surge of passion come over me the other night. I found so many amazing blogs and sites that showcase little things that are just plain inspiring. I realized in my 2 hours of searching..."I am an artist"! I haven't done "art" that inspires and moves me in years-probably 10 years. I have done art for others on what they want and needs. That's when it hit me that I need an area of concentration-a time period if you will that I am going to let the Lord move through my work! Ahhhhhhhh...it sounds & feels so good. I have had this giddy feeling in me that is indescribable, and I really don't know what God is birthing in me-and still don't, but He is leading me on a journey of self discovery. Which takes my breathe away! It excites me! I almost feel like these past 8 months have been a prep period for me and my families awakening. Yes, this time has been humbling at times, stressful, lonely; but it has also been a prep time for us to see where the Lord wants us-and are we gonna be obedient? I have had questions...random questions- like "what are we gonna do with all this heart stuff?- do we get involved?" Where is Haiden gonna go to school? private/public/homeschooling? Are we done having kids? Will I ever lose this weight? What and when do I want to start painting again? How do I cut it off if I take a break? What is my purpose? When am I gonna have time and money to create a sanctuary space for Chris and I? How is life gonna be when we function as "normal"? What is "normal" now? Do I want to be "normal"? Whooohooow! Ya see the Lord is stirring me-I just know it! I dare say this cause it is scary to say-but if it is the Lord it will be amazing; but i feel that I am gonna take this next year for self discovery. No more jobs for people (murals, painting, etc) No more decorating jobs or graphics. A time to create and listen! A time to enrich and enjoy my family almost for the first time by nurturing through the Lord. To step "out"& discover what it is like as a family to go to church, travel, play dates, etc. But for the Lord to inspire me, pull at my heart strings, guide me, and expose me, but mostly use me! I really don't know what all of this looks like or how I will ween into, but I do know I need to be obedient. I need to be open. I need to be ready. I know this is random, but as we venture closer to a season where we can "come out of hibernation" if you will- I really want to experience more life and not go back to how it was. How could it be? I am forever changed. But I do know-it is what I know and all I know and could slip right back to it. Like all the mural jobs piling back up and having to stick my kids somewhere and so does the stress. And I have this nagging feeling that- that is not what i am about right now. Don't get me wrong i love to make things for everyone, give advice, and ramble ideas at lighting speed; but I want to have a clear schedule for me to hear the Lord & let Him lead me. I will always do this to an extent for those I know-cause it is in. But I now need to create as an artist- an artist who in my spare time would make art out of passion and love listening to worship music and worshipping Him through the gift He gave me- but now i want to use it to glorify Him. Wow- I wonder what this year is gonna bring to me so I can be a better wife, mom, daughter, friend, sister but mostly a child of God! He gave me this gift-I need to be ready to share it with those the Lord is allowing to touch- thanks for hearing my heart and taking this journey with me. I have a few jobs i am finishing then it is time to get moving!

day 6

2009-01-28T08:23:00.000-08:00

Okay girls...
Still work on your office spaces. Mine is a work in progress...not really sure if I will have it done yet. I have a confession...

I hired a cleaning lady to deep clean my house for the first time on Friday...It was WONDERFUL! They did a great job too! I really needed it. We have been in our home continously for 8 months with little break and I feel all I do is "surface" clean and the dust and grime was piling up! We also had Christmas and company after Christmas for a week and it was really good to get to maintable square one. So...phew there ya go. I confessed my awesome guilty pleasure to all!

moving on...

I am starting a number of projects soon. 3 framed pics, two paintings, painting a baby boys nursery (owner of "pickles and ice cream), maybe a bench, and I have 6 projects in my house I want to tackle. I got word from Robin Marsh on News 9 that in the spring she wants me to look at her playroom and "do somethin', girl!"...she seems really nice. But that will be down the road. i feel the business coming on...

breathe.

okay...got to take it one day at a time. This is where the whole "overwhelmed" feeling comes on and I end up neglecting things like my home or laundry. Which is fine compared to spending time with my family...but it does eat at me that it is there. It is all a process and seasons we go through. Mine is never ending it seems. It is really nice to take it slow though without stress like with Schafer's stuff. We have been going slow, but now with this huge burden lifted to embrace life more than before where I felt trapped and worried. I am just rambling though enough about me...all that to say...I have boat loads of projects to share soon. Everyone enjoy their snowy days!!!! Love on your family and paint, clean, or decorate something!!!!

day 5

2009-01-27T10:50:00.000-08:00

I'll be honest guys...todays thing is probably not gonna happen. It is snowy and I have the hubby home. I didn't even get in the office to do this till now cause he is working from home on and off. So here it is to stay on task if you want the challenge of the day.

Let's get to work on today's challenge!
Have you spent time with the Lord today? If not, challenge yourself to get up early everyday to meet Him first thing - remember, I'll get up with you!
Have your six list done? If not, go ahead and do it now.
Have your mission statement in view - read it over and be reminded of why you are taking care of your domain. (Haven't done this yet? That's okay, work on it when you have time, it will greatly motivate you.)
Today is an organizing day! Whether you have an office, or just a desk, we are going to organize them, as in, opening all the drawers, taking everything out, THROWING THINGS AWAY, and putting our office items in order (magazines, bills, stationary, etc.). So, let's get our "work spaces" into working order! As always, I'll post pics, feel free to post yours (I love seeing them)!
Tips for organizing your home office
How to rejuvenate your office

cleaning style-day 4

2009-01-26T06:28:00.000-08:00

First just letting everyone know that we took Haiden to "Walking with Dinosaurs" -she loved it! I was so scared Chris just wasted money that was non-refundable. But she just talked about it all weekend. We wanted to do something with her and give her some one on one attention. It seems like since Schafer was born she not only gained a little brother...which is a huge change, but her and our whole way we did life changed. No play groups or going to church. Hardly ever seeing family and friends...just very isolated. It has to be hard on her too, I really have tried to be sensitive to her needs but it is hard. And now we are months away from lighting up even more-can't wait!!!! And she is doing fine everyone...she is a little card.

now on to our cleaning...:( I slacked on the mission statement yall...have not done that.

Let's be honest, we are probably not going to become Martha Stewart. That's okay.
"O LORD, You have searched me and known me...You...are intimately acquainted with all my ways...For You formed my inward parts You wove me in my mother's womb..." Psalm 139:1,3,13
God formed our personalities and He knows how we work and how we don't. He knows where we struggle and where we excel. If you are not a naturally "neat and organized" type A personality, just accept it, and live out of who you are. I used to beat myself up all the time, "if only I were like so and so, I would be such a better wife, homemaker, mother..." These are thoughts from the enemy! We do have a responsibility to our families and the domains God gave us, and must lay down our flesh minute by minute, by the grace of God, and do our best. However, let's not get trapped by perfection, comparison's, or any other distractions that steal away the truth that God loves us and we are a work in progress!
With this said, I want you to think about your personality style, and what works for you. Maybe you love the idea of having a schedule and you are great at writing one out, but when it comes to actually following it, well, let's just say, not so much! Perhaps, for the time being, you need to not be scheduled, but instead focus on getting certain things accomplished by a certain time in the day. For example, I want to challenge you to clean your kitchen every morning (I know, this is counter to the flylady, but I don't want to clean my kitchen at night!) but maybe mornings are better spent hanging out with your kiddos and just gathering yourself for the day. So for you, you might say, "I will have my kitchen cleaned by noon." That's a realistic goal that doesn't put you in a box...there is freedom in flexibility.
My number one rule is: DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP! I don't care how many times you "fail," don't quit, press on, and know who you are. Figure out your cleaning style, and go with it, not trying to be anybody else. Work hard, get what you need to get done, confess laziness, and accept God's grace. Oh, and know that you are not alone - that's why we're here, to encourage you on!
Now, let's get started on today's "cleaning," shall we?
Today's Challenge:
The living room. Ah yes, the place where many family memories are made, a place to carve out peace and comfort, a place to invite guests to relax and "make yourself at home," a place where love treads. Let's work on it today. Do this:
Vacuum/mop behind the couches (you never know what goodies you may find!)
Dust what needs dusting
Vacuum/mop the floors
Get rid of any clutter (just get rid of it already! Let it go...)
Straighten up (knowing that, if you have kids, this will last two minutes - just accept it!)
While you're working and dropping beads of sweat, thank God that you have a home to take care of.

why clean-day3

2009-01-22T04:49:00.000-08:00

BEFORE

IT HAS BEEN DIRTIER...AND IT LOOKS WORSE IN PERSON AFTER
Before I go any further, do you have your "six list" done? If not, stop reading, pull out your pen and paper, and write it down (leaving a space blank for today's challenge.)Okay, now we can move on.

I have a question for you: Why do you want a clean home? This may sound silly, but I think it's important that YOU discover for yourself why you want a clean home. I want you to identify specifically the reasons you want to make your home a haven. I believe that if you can generate a list of the "whys" then you will be able to look on it and remind yourself why, day in and day out, you are spending time on the "mundane" things that never seem to stay accomplished. YOU need to have purpose in what you're doing, or you will continue to stay in a rut. Once you figure it out, we can start cleaning! :)You have two challenges today:

1.) Figure out your mission statement
Write down on a piece of paper exactly why you want a clean home. Be specific. When you are finished, it should take you no longer than a minute to read over your "mission statement."
Find a motivating verse or quote that you put somewhere where you will see it every day. Add to it a mini mission statement from your specific one. For example, write a poem on why you want a clean home, or draw a picture of your mission statement. Perhaps you like lists - make your mission statement into a "why" list. Whatever you decide to do, make it pretty, maybe put it in a frame...but have fun with it!

2.) Clean out the toy box! (Or kids area)
Are toys taking over your home? Welcome to my world! Today, clean out that toy box/kids area! Throw out/give away toys the kids don't play with, store some in the attic, and organize! You will definitely need a trash bag and "goodwill" box handy. Let's take back our homes! (At least for an hour!)

Okay, I want to know your mission statement it (you can give the brief version if you prefer!) I will post mine when I complete it - I also want to see before and after pics of your progress (remember, not perfection, PROGRESS!) and/or your pretty mission statement (if you don't have kids, you'll have plenty of time to decorate and make a pretty mission statement!) Post the pics on your blog.

update to the "six list"

2009-01-21T11:15:00.000-08:00

Hey to everyone doing this "clean" thing...

leave a space on your "six list" for the daily challenge. I forgot to do that and I reread the blog I got this from and that is what she did. it can be a bit much if we don't correct that. have fun...I got 3 things on my list done so far and 3/4 of my kitchen...that includes the frig!!! yeah. I also, had a little play time with both kiddos in Haiden's room and sat down to have a good lunch with Haiden too. It is working.

day 2- "six list"

2009-01-21T07:52:00.000-08:00

Before we go to bed, every night, write down the six most important things you need to get accomplished the next day -no more, and no less. Do not go on the next thing until you complete the first thing on your list, and so on. I really think that if I get myself back in the habit of making my list, I will save so much time. So, every night before bed we are going to make our lists - are you with me? Now, for good measure, I'm going to throw in some other challenges today. Clear up your schedule issues. Our schedules are one of the domains God gave us to rule and subdue - we must not let it rule us. Figure our your "time wasters" and then execute a plan to regain your time. For example, computer time can be a huge time waster (blogging, shopping, pictures etc.) We have to set limits, or we could spend hours wasting time. Here's what I'm going to implement:
No computer time while the kids are up (except morning video time)
During kiddos naps, set a timer for 20 minutes of computer time. When timer goes off, get to work!
In the evening, after the kiddos are in bed and if hubby is doing something else, then computer time. Do not neglect hubby!

"Look carefully then how you walk! Live purposefully and worthily and accurately, not as the unwise and witless, but as wise - sensible, intelligent people; making the very most of the time - buying up each opportunity - because the days are evil." Ephesians 5:15-17

Let's get to work!

Now that we have our priorities set, our "six list" on the horizon, and we're working towards gaining back our time, let's get to work. let's clean our kitchens well - including the refrigerator.

oh...here is my "six"

1.fold clean laundry

2.wash my sheets

3.clean rest of laundry in all hampers

4.pick up livingroom(that will always be on my list)

5.pick-up myt room after sheets are done

6. do sketches for a clients baby's room

I will post my "before" and "afters" tomorrow morning...will you? Try the list!

starting the "30 days of clean"-day 1

2009-01-20T10:30:00.000-08:00

Here is the start of this 30 day clean series I thought would be good. Hope you all will join in and tell people about it. I will try to keep up on it too. I did get this from another ladies blog for the most part and just added my flavor to it. It really motivated me so I wanted to share it with my friends. So let's get started!

First things first! Before we can "dig" in to getting things clean and in order, we've got to get our minds and hearts in order. Today, we are going to work on our priorities and goals, and then throw in some motivation for encouragement!
Let's talk priorities. If you're anything like me, you have good intentions, but you somehow fall short. For example, I always say that God is first in my life, but is my life reflecting that? Do I spend time with Lord each day? What does my prayer life look life? Scripture memory? You can see where I'm going with this. It's easy to say what our priorities are, but it's really important that we take an inventory of them so we can honestly evaluate where things need to change. Today, we're going to come up with list of our priorities, in order of importance (I suggest rating them, 1-5, to evaluate how you're doing). Here are mine:

1. God
I want be in constant communion with Him, grower deeper in relationship by prayer and time in His word. This has to come first in my day because otherwise it rarely happens. Plus, it starts my day out right.

My commitment: Get up early each day to sit at His feet

Verses/quotes of motivation:
"In the morning I will order my prayer to You and eagerly watch." Psalm 5:3
"In your presence is fullness of joy." Psalm 16:11
"For I satisfy the weary ones and refresh everyone who languishes." Jeremiah 31:25
"In the early morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house, and went away to a secluded place, and was praying there." Mark 1:35

2. Husband
I want to be an "excellent" wife, bringing glory to my husband. I want him to find solace and comfort in me, I want to be his biggest fan and his best friend. I need to be a soft place to land for him when is long day is over.

My commitment: Respond to him lovingly and intimately. Make an effort to serve him first. Be careful not to nag. Show respect.

Verses/quotes to motivate:
"A wise woman builds her house, but the foolish tears it down with her own hands." Proverbs 14:1
"She does him good and not evil all the days of his life." Proverbs 31:12

3. Children
My goal is to train my children in the Lord, so it is imperative that I have the time to play, activities and fun things for them. I also want to just have fun with them - carved out times in the day that are theirs.

My commitment: Work hard at getting my home in order so that I can be freed up to spend time with them, not worrying about all I have to do. Gain control of my time and schedule so that I have adequate time to plan activities etc.

Verses to motivate:
"Teach them to your children, And talk about them When you sit at home And walk along the road. When you lie down and when you get up. Write them down and tie them on your hands as a sign. Tie them on your forehead to remind you and write them on your doors and gates." Deuteronomy 6:7-8
"Train up a child in the way he should go, Even when he is old he will not depart from it." Proverbs 22:6

4. Home
I want a clean home - not a perfectionist home - but a home of comfort and peace. I want a place where my children feel security and warmth, my husband has a haven, and place where people can show up and make themselves at home. I also want to take pride in the domain God gave me to manage. I have been struggling with laziness since Schafer's birth cause it is consistent cleaning when you never leave, so this is sin that I must fight, with God's help.

My commitment: Work hard, putting off laziness, and putting my family before myself by taking care of the home God gave me.

Verses to motivate/quotes to motivate:
"She looks well to the ways of her household, and does not eat the bread of idleness." Proverbs 31:27
"Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for me..." Colossians 3:23
"Do all things without grumbling..." Philippians 2:14
"Hospitality is the message you give a person about their value." Phyllis Stanley

5. Personal
I want to carve out time to sharpen my skills, enjoy my hobbies, and just do whatever! I'm putting this last, not because I don't think it's important to develop ourselves as women, but because I believe the other things come first. Plus, I will be able to enjoy "my" time more if I have everything else in order.

My commitment: Take time for the things I enjoy!

Verses to motivate: Anyone know of any good verses for this?
This will take some time, so think about it, pray about it, and tomorrow we'll "pick things up" where we left off!

Will you share your priorities?

sugar and spice/rails, snails, and puppy dog tails

2009-01-14T19:16:00.000-08:00

Ok...so I got this bug to get my kids bathroom done the week before Christmas. And may I add that I had Christmas at my house on top of that! It all worked out in the end and was very nice, but I have a weird habit of piling on the projects all at one time. I have to say it is kinda tough coming up with a gender neutral theme or decor for a little boy and girl...so go with it with me. I really liked the "nature" thing. The twigs and branches look so I went from there. All in the mind of Kacie. I can't explain it, it just hits me. It really looks a ton better in person so everyone will just have to come by...hehehe. I have those few small touches and accessories left to add I just don't get out much to shop right now...so all in good time. Well, enjoy the pics. I am putting "before" and "after" pics up.

"BEFORES"

"AFTERS"

activity table

2009-01-13T04:58:00.000-08:00

I know some of you have already seen my kiddos table I painted. I've had a few people ask me about it. So, I am putting it on here today so they can see it. Hope it is everything and more...lol...ha ha ha. Tomorrow I will post my kids bathroom. I did it the week before Christmas and just have not taken the "after" pictures. Also, I am starting that "30 days of clean" series. So get ready if you want to chime in! If you really want to be kept accountable...you can email me your "before" and "after" pictures and I will post those for everyone else to admire!;)

been sooooo long

2009-01-05T11:19:00.000-08:00

I have been away from my computer for a long time. Though refreshing in a since it was not by choice. I contracted some horrible demon possessed computer virus that had its own legions with it! LOL!!! Seriously...I had like 15 viruses that disabled my adware stuff. We thought I had lost all family pictures, pictures of decorating jobs from clients, graphics, and family budget. All that to say...it would be bad. I cried. But my brother-n-law saved the day and fixed it when they visited us. Phewwwwww!!!! I have lots of stuff I can start posting soon. So sorry about the delay. It was not on purpose. I can't wait to dig in with more things to rant about.

ideas stirring...hang on

2008-12-17T21:32:00.000-08:00

I have really tried to do a few things-aka "projects" around the house. Those of you who know me...my life is consumed with "projects". Usually they are for other people so I am taking advantage of small snippets of time here and there between naps, movies, and after bedtime to do a bit. These two projects cost me pennies. I did a project with hand prints first. So easy...I do realize in sharing I am gonna see hand prints popping up in everyone's home so just be your creative selves and personalize it for your lil' babies. I love that Schafer's is smeared cause it totally shows his age. Also, I have been wanting to redo the kiddos bathroom. It is decorless (I know that is not a word). it has stuff, but it is a snoozer of a room. So, painting and design it is on a teeny tiny bugdet. But I am gonna try to work some magic. I picked a "sugar and spice & everything nice, rails, snails, and puppy dog tails" theme-in a way. Lots of patterns and colors...girly stuff meets nature if you will. I am give you a sneak peek of 2 of the 4 pictures I did to give you an idea of what I'm thinking in my jumbled head of mine. The colors and the clarity of the pictures look so much better in person, but you get a basic idea. Almost everything I am making so I will try to get done as soon as I can. I did take before pics, so I can blog later to show the after too. STAY TUNED!!!!! J/K

8 years

2008-12-17T09:16:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was our 8th anniversity! Can you believe that! We really didn't celebrate it yesterday cause we get to go on our first date in 10 months this weekend! I know...shocking. We have done alot of "at home" dates after the kids go to bed, but it is not always the same. You get to "get out" of the house. Which is something I am looking forward to since that has been my life for 6 months. We are going downtown to the Melting Pot...I am very excited!

Haiden and Schafer got to open a couple of Christmas presents from my brother and sister-n-law this past weekend, and I caught Schafer in the act on film. I really thought to myself that he really wouldn't care or get into it, but he sure showed me wrong. He loved it! He may not remember, but I love his little outlook on life. So passionate. That little guy has been through more, experienced more, and have touched more people than I have or most people I know in his small short life. He is truely my "little man", "lil braveheart", and an inspiration to me. I am honored that the Lord has allowed me to watch him grow up- both of them for that matter. She is amzing too...she's my "little baby doll"-she has looked like one since she was born and it just stuck. I am so blessed by my family and my husband. All of this is given to me all because the Lord gave me Chris and we fell in love! God is Good!!!! Enjoy these pics!

my prodigy at work...don't ya think?

2008-12-13T19:32:00.000-08:00

Haiden and I did an art project a few days ago for Christmas. I want to have my kiddos make an oranament for the tree every year. One that will be so special and that I really want to display (and match:) ). Sorry that is the decorator in me. Well, I thought she did great! They really do look beautiful on our tree! I told her we are making decorations for Jesus' bday party and she picked out the places on the tree to display them...she wanted them to be special for Him. So sweet. Well, enjoy!

clean house...check?!

2008-12-10T19:55:00.000-08:00

I have several little topics that either I would love to talk about and engage with people on or do a series where it also straightens me out too. This first thought I've been struggling with mainly cause I have a toddler and a 6 month old, but a 6 month old that had major open heart surgery (which most of you know). So I have had to baby him a bit and skip out on other things around the house...which is totally fine during this season cause that is what he needs. I found a blog of this christian woman and she did a series like this and really hit the nail on the head of some of the feelings I feel...just stuck. So I have taken some of her content and added some of my own flava to it. In the begining of January I am gonna start "30 days to clean". Just after holidays and getting back into the swing of this and Schafer will be recovered then though we still have to hang around the house. Here is a sampling to get ya thinking...

The house is a mess. Dishes all over the counter tops, toys everywhere, papers askew. It’s depressing just looking at it all. "Didn’t I just get this mess cleaned up?"
When I look around at the mess, I see Mount Everest. I get stuck, I feel depressed, and I have no idea where to begin...or if I even want to. I just feel so...overwhelmed sometimes.

I can see the eternal reasons for taking care of my home and family, and the immediate gratification of a well-kept home is like the cherry on top. But, I still struggle with being overwhelmed from time to time. So, what’s a girl to do?

Here are some things I’ve come across that have been helpful:
When the house is a mess, only work on one room at a time.This little nugget of advice has helped me so much! I tend to just start cleaning, haphazardly moving from room to room, cleaning a little here and a little there. Then I started only doing one room at a time - what a difference! If I stay focused on my task, and when I’m through with one room, I can look at it and see results. Sometimes I break up Haiden's and Schafer's rooms and bath room one day, kitchen and livingroom another...ya get the picture.

Here is a good quote to get your booty movin..."The secret of getting ahead is getting started." Sally Berger

Be generous to your trash can.Throw things out! The more things I realize I don’t need and can definitely live without, the less stress I create for myself. Just let it go! And boy do I need to do this now...I am behind! Ya know the whole, "it looks good on the outside, but don't look in the closet!"

Get rid of half the toys.Okay, maybe for you half is too much (or not enough), but the point is, your kiddos don’t need tons of things out. Grab the toys that the kiddos don’t play with all that much (or just won’t even notice there gone) and either get rid of them or send them to the attic. You can pull them out on a rainy day.'

Do the 15 minute thing.Fly lady says to put the timer on for 15 minutes and go to work, doing everything you can in that time frame. It is helpful, especially to those who like a challenge.
Just get moving!I spend so much time fretting and being overwhelmed that I stay stagnant, which leads to me feeling worse, and then ultimately, I give in to laziness and a "why bother" attitude. Just get up! Force yourself to do SOMETHING. I also turn the tv off and put music on...man I get way more done, and I have to act fast before my baby boy wakes up!

Envision the big picture.You know that warm and comfy feeling you get when you walk into a home that is well taken care of, clean, and inviting? It’s not sterile, but tidy, warm, and peaceful. That’s the kind of home I want, and that motivates me to see the big picture instead of the piles. What’s your big picture?

Get alone, first thing in the morning, and spend time with God.This is probably the best advice I can give you and myself. Spending time with the Lord before the day begins helps me to refocus, get my priorities straight, and gives me the true rest and refreshment I need to take on the day. I can’t take on my day without His strength and lately I really need Him to guide me.

Challenge for Today:
Light a candle, find a cozy spot somewhere quiet (only for 10 minutes - send the kids outside, wait until naps, or pop in a DVD), sip on your favorite beverage, close your eyes, and envision your big picture. Think about your home and what you want it to be. Do you want it to be a place of refuge? Inviting? Warm? Fun? Picture your home in all its clean and organized glory, and then burn the image into your brain and heart. Now grab your journal (or notebook, or scrap of paper) and write down your big picture. Ask God to help you physically create your vision, thanking Him for the ability to do so.
"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

This is a taste of what I would like to do in January...let me know what you guys think and if anyone is interested...cause like you can see it is alot of typing but I really need this too! I just want a little bit of order everyday where I then can focus on my family and not feel like I am thinking of the next thing to do throughout the day.

Kacie

look at me...1,2,3

2008-12-09T09:37:00.000-08:00

I don't have any deep thoughts for the day...but two days ago I was trying to take pictures of Haiden and Schafer for a Christmas card, but their schedules were off that day and I was the mom, stylist, and the photographer so low and behold things were not jiving. Oh well, it gave me and my baby girl some fun time together, and I got to fuss with her fashion. Just thought I would share something upbeat! Enjoy! I am seriously having war with publishing these pictures right!:(

need more coffee...I guess and more hours in the day

2008-12-08T06:05:00.000-08:00

This weekend I went with two friends to a little home show and lunch! It was so fun...it was my first outing since Schafer's heart surgery. A good "girl's day out" and very needed. When we went to the home show we got to see lots of ladies which were mostly moms that were showcasing merchandise and their talents of things they made. You hate to think it, but I was just saying to myself, "why don't I do this...I have a lot to offer!" I just got that excited flutter in me and tons of ideas that I could do flashing in my brain. One of the girls at the show I know from church came up to talk to me and she asked about Schafer first...which was so nice. Then we talked about me doing some paintings etc. for a website of hers. And that really does sound good to me, mostly cause I have been in a mural rut only, and that is laborsome, hard to find childcare for 2 now, and time consuming. Though I don't want to give it up completely, I just want to do it here and there. I just kept thinking about if I went all out and really focused on my kids paintings and some of my other ideas I really could go somewhere with it. People have me do things for them all the time and I have a waiting list right now of murals to do, but I have them on hold til I'm ready after Schafer's recovery. But it scares me to death!!! I've been really busy in seasons and I had to find people to watch Haiden, neglected my home, hard time going to the grocery store, and so much more. And that brings me to my burden..."how do I focus on a talent when my family and household are much more important?" I know this question is not uncommon. Most mommies struggle with something like this, whether out of necessity or want. I have such a burden about getting too busy I don't even make business cards cause I don't want people to think I do this full time...I know that sounds silly. I have had a few opportunities come my way, but I take them lightly cause if I don't feel like I would have control of my time...then I let it slip away over time. People have told me just keep doing what your doing and when they are in school you'll have more time, but we have thrown around the idea of homeschooling...well, and that would throw that theory out the window (but we are still praying about that topic) and some doors may be opening with heart stuff through the cardiology department at Children's Hospital too(I'll get to that soon) . This is a topic that is a huge prayer issue. Where is the balance? How do I focus on the right things at the right time if I did pursue some avenues? I really have so many questions and alot to lift up in prayer. Do you ever have struggles like this when your family is your world?!

getting ready for CHRISTmas

2008-12-04T20:56:00.000-08:00

Well last weekend I got a huge dent in the christmas decor. Just yesterday I added some finishing touches. It is a big job...especially trying to do it with two kiddos that are small. But this year I am just so thankful and almost giddy. I just really couldn't wait to do it After our little boy healing from this huge burden that i have been coping with for over 5 months! I know it isn't about the tree or how "decorated" it looks...but it really just makes the setting of this season. Ya know those warm fuzzies. I really love that we are celebrating Jesus' birth, but I am thankful for His life of examplship (is that a word??? or did I spell that right...ahh?) and his death for me. I know He supposedly wasn't born in December, but when then do we give notice to His coming into this world to full fill His promise? It does give me a reminder to teach my children more about Jesus. And it is getting so exciting cause Haiden is 2.5 going on 13... I promise!:) I just now have to tackle the whole Santa thing! Got to get back with you on that one. Take the time to sit down and reflect on how the Lord has blessed you and your family this season. When you take away all the petty things that bother you and you get to the basics of life...the things that really matter (God, family, relationships) you realize the amazing purpose he has for you. It is mind boggling to me, and I really am glad to start seeing glimpses of his plans! We are all so blessed and need to be drawing closer to Him.

Here are some pics of our home this Christmas...I was just playing around with my camara. Enjoy!

Kacie

p.s. I have to figure out this whole picture thing...hang in there with me!

ta da...a new journey

2008-12-03T06:12:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone...
I decided to jump on the band wagon of bloggers too. I have been doing it anyways with Schafer's journey and I have loved putting myself out there and telling everyone what the Lord is doing and my real struggles as a believer, mom, wife, etc. I just feel that there is so much more to my world and myself than what is out there on the world wide web. Schafer's experience has been life changing in our family and I am forever transformed in ways that I have had a hard time taming. But I have this amazing daughter too that if I just typed out some of the things she does...you would be rolling...well, maybe I still may be the only one cause I'm the momma, but you get the point. I also have alot of ideas...I mean ALOT! If you know me, you know that in seconds I can rattle off your whole new decorating plan for your room or home. Or what kind of painting (mural), paintings, furniture, with accessories are needed to finish the job. Or changing up a business card, logo, or invitations for christmas or parties etc. I really sometimes have a hard time getting to sleep at night cause I can't turn it off! My new found passion that the Lord I feel is developing has spurred off from my whole experience with Schafer and living our life for 5 months protecting him from...well, everything. I really feel that thisw journey though mundane is so stressful cause there are no black and white rules or even suggestions that make you feel as a mom that you are doing the right thing. I have been writing down questions or second guesses that has a mom would make you feel like you are doing your part to save your baby. Lord knows that if I could I would have done the surgery, recovery, and everything in between to fix him myself. But I don't know the first thing to do, so alot of trust goes to the Lord, doctors I don't know or just met (I met his surgeon for the first time minutes before his surgery!!!! Yes, do ya get what I'm saying!), and making last minute decisions about if I really should take him to certain places or let people in my home. The questions are endless and I have found that there is a need for a parent to feel like they have a hold on the situation in a time where your life is turned upside down in seconds. I will have a couple of blogs on that...I know some neat things are stirring with all that. STAY TUNED!!!! Hope this is a good way to clear my crazy brain of ideas, suggestions, crafts, and life questions I go through. Can't wait to take this journey with everyone and I hope you enjoy! I will still be on the caringbridge site a tad longer before I give this site 100% so hang in there.
Kacie